Dustin Henderlong

“ Everything is more complicated than you think
You only see a tenth of what is true.
There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make
You can destroy your life every time you choose
But maybe you won’t know for 20 years
And you may never ever trace it to its source
And you only get one chance to play it out
Just try and figure out your own divorce
And they say there is no fate
But there is, it’s what you create
And even though the world goes on for eons and eons
You are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second
Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born
But while alive you wait in vain, wasting years
For a phone call or a letter or a look from someone
Or something to make it all right and it never comes
Or it seems to but it doesn’t really
So you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope
That something good will come along
Something to make you feel connected
Something to make you feel whole
Something to make you feel loved
And the truth is, I feel so angry
And the truth is, I feel so fucking sad
And the truth is, I’ve felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long
And for just as long I’ve been pretending I’m ok just to get along
Just for, I don’t know why
Maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery
Because they have their own
Well, fuck everybody.
Amen

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